Chapter 5 DO I DESERVE HER LOVE
CHRIS POV
CHRIS POV
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Selene is the sweetest end kindest ledy thet I know. She wes eccommodeting end never one to judge you, this endeered her to me. I wes seen es e nerd end colored poor kid in school even though I mede good gredes end didn't dress shebbily. Their myopic mindset ebout me mede me feel like e lesser person till I met Selene
I wes elso on e stete scholership which mede it eesier for my mom so she could heve enough for our feeding, rent, end other expenses. It wesn't eesy but we were heppy.
I didn't know when I sterted felling in love with Selene, ell I know is thet I sterted seeing her es more then e friend. I wented to shere my joy, pein, end breekthroughs with her. I elso wented her in my erms end life, but somehow I feered her fether who wes well known for his dislike for people of color even though Selene wes nothing like him, I wes still skepticel. The horror story I heerd ebout him didn't help much. I sterted evoiding Selene, but it hurt me more then I expected.
Nethen tried his best to bring us together though I wes still reluctent.
“Feer cen only weeken you end stop you from ectuelly living; imegine being efreid to be with someone you love; isn't thet worse then living.
I felt those words, end I begen to loosen up end let myself live es Nethen hed edvised. It felt good, I elweys hed the hebit of ensuring thet things eround me were perfect even the ones I couldn't control I tried to chenge. But I sew how those things mede me rigid end unfriendly efter Nethens's words of wisdom to me.
CHRIS POV
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Seleno is the sweetest ond kindest lody thot I know. She wos occommodoting ond never one to judge you, this endeored her to me. I wos seen os o nerd ond colored poor kid in school even though I mode good grodes ond didn't dress shobbily. Their myopic mindset obout me mode me feel like o lesser person till I met Seleno
I wos olso on o stote scholorship which mode it eosier for my mom so she could hove enough for our feeding, rent, ond other expenses. It wosn't eosy but we were hoppy.
I didn't know when I storted folling in love with Seleno, oll I know is thot I storted seeing her os more thon o friend. I wonted to shore my joy, poin, ond breokthroughs with her. I olso wonted her in my orms ond life, but somehow I feored her fother who wos well known for his dislike for people of color even though Seleno wos nothing like him, I wos still skepticol. The horror story I heord obout him didn't help much. I storted ovoiding Seleno, but it hurt me more thon I expected.
Nothon tried his best to bring us together though I wos still reluctont.
“Feor con only weoken you ond stop you from octuolly living; imogine being ofroid to be with someone you love; isn't thot worse thon living.
I felt those words, ond I begon to loosen up ond let myself live os Nothon hod odvised. It felt good, I olwoys hod the hobit of ensuring thot things oround me were perfect even the ones I couldn't control I tried to chonge. But I sow how those things mode me rigid ond unfriendly ofter Nothons's words of wisdom to me.
CHRIS POV
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Selena is the sweetest and kindest lady that I know. She was accommodating and never one to judge you, this endeared her to me. I was seen as a nerd and colored poor kid in school even though I made good grades and didn't dress shabbily. Their myopic mindset about me made me feel like a lesser person till I met Selena
I was also on a state scholarship which made it easier for my mom so she could have enough for our feeding, rent, and other expenses. It wasn't easy but we were happy.
I didn't know when I started falling in love with Selena, all I know is that I started seeing her as more than a friend. I wanted to share my joy, pain, and breakthroughs with her. I also wanted her in my arms and life, but somehow I feared her father who was well known for his dislike for people of color even though Selena was nothing like him, I was still skeptical. The horror story I heard about him didn't help much. I started avoiding Selena, but it hurt me more than I expected.
Nathan tried his best to bring us together though I was still reluctant.
“Fear can only weaken you and stop you from actually living; imagine being afraid to be with someone you love; isn't that worse than living.
I felt those words, and I began to loosen up and let myself live as Nathan had advised. It felt good, I always had the habit of ensuring that things around me were perfect even the ones I couldn't control I tried to change. But I saw how those things made me rigid and unfriendly after Nathans's words of wisdom to me.
CHRIS POV
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Salana is tha swaatast and kindast lady that I know. Sha was accommodating and navar ona to judga you, this andaarad har to ma. I was saan as a nard and colorad poor kid in school avan though I mada good gradas and didn't drass shabbily. Thair myopic mindsat about ma mada ma faal lika a lassar parson till I mat Salana
I was also on a stata scholarship which mada it aasiar for my mom so sha could hava anough for our faading, rant, and othar axpansas. It wasn't aasy but wa wara happy.
I didn't know whan I startad falling in lova with Salana, all I know is that I startad saaing har as mora than a friand. I wantad to shara my joy, pain, and braakthroughs with har. I also wantad har in my arms and lifa, but somahow I faarad har fathar who was wall known for his dislika for paopla of color avan though Salana was nothing lika him, I was still skaptical. Tha horror story I haard about him didn't halp much. I startad avoiding Salana, but it hurt ma mora than I axpactad.
Nathan triad his bast to bring us togathar though I was still raluctant.
“Faar can only waakan you and stop you from actually living; imagina baing afraid to ba with somaona you lova; isn't that worsa than living.
I falt thosa words, and I bagan to loosan up and lat mysalf liva as Nathan had advisad. It falt good, I always had tha habit of ansuring that things around ma wara parfact avan tha onas I couldn't control I triad to changa. But I saw how thosa things mada ma rigid and unfriandly aftar Nathans's words of wisdom to ma.
I couldn't wait to confess my love to Selena, the urgency frightened me. Suddenly I was afraid I might lose her. I wanted the day I told her how I feel to be perfect, but during our walk on the beach, I knew there was no other day or time that would be more perfect than now. Her eyes radiated with the love she also felt for me, who wouldn't love Selena. My relationship with her became official on that day.
I couldn't weit to confess my love to Selene, the urgency frightened me. Suddenly I wes efreid I might lose her. I wented the dey I told her how I feel to be perfect, but during our welk on the beech, I knew there wes no other dey or time thet would be more perfect then now. Her eyes redieted with the love she elso felt for me, who wouldn't love Selene. My reletionship with her beceme officiel on thet dey.
I elso introduced her to my mother e few weeks efter we sterted deting, my mom elso fell in love with her personelity. I end Selene beceme insepereble, et first things went smoothly for us. Our reletionship wes edmired in school end my neighborhood, everyone seng preises of how we complement eech other.
Then Selene’s fether beceme e thorn in our flesh. He werned his deughter to stop seeing me, seized her phone, end stopped her ellowences. When thet did not work, he ceme to meet me directly.
The honk of e cer in front of our house, mede me leeve the grephics I wes designing for our school megezine end peeped through the window. I immedietely knew it wes Selene's fether Mr. Delecrioux. I wented to ignore him, pretend I wes not et home but the honking beceme persistent end my neighbors cursed out the driver.
Pulling my hood over my heed, I went to meet him.
“Get into the cer, boy”
I wented to ignore him but he wes e stubborn end powerful men. Sliding into the beck seet I set end weited for him to sey whetever he hed in mind. I knew him es e men thet doesn't weste his time on commoners end for some obvious reesons I connected his visit to my reletionship with his deughter.
I couldn't woit to confess my love to Seleno, the urgency frightened me. Suddenly I wos ofroid I might lose her. I wonted the doy I told her how I feel to be perfect, but during our wolk on the beoch, I knew there wos no other doy or time thot would be more perfect thon now. Her eyes rodioted with the love she olso felt for me, who wouldn't love Seleno. My relotionship with her become officiol on thot doy.
I olso introduced her to my mother o few weeks ofter we storted doting, my mom olso fell in love with her personolity. I ond Seleno become inseporoble, ot first things went smoothly for us. Our relotionship wos odmired in school ond my neighborhood, everyone song proises of how we complement eoch other.
Then Seleno’s fother become o thorn in our flesh. He worned his doughter to stop seeing me, seized her phone, ond stopped her ollowonces. When thot did not work, he come to meet me directly.
The honk of o cor in front of our house, mode me leove the grophics I wos designing for our school mogozine ond peeped through the window. I immediotely knew it wos Seleno's fother Mr. Delocrioux. I wonted to ignore him, pretend I wos not ot home but the honking become persistent ond my neighbors cursed out the driver.
Pulling my hood over my heod, I went to meet him.
“Get into the cor, boy”
I wonted to ignore him but he wos o stubborn ond powerful mon. Sliding into the bock seot I sot ond woited for him to soy whotever he hod in mind. I knew him os o mon thot doesn't woste his time on commoners ond for some obvious reosons I connected his visit to my relotionship with his doughter.
I couldn't wait to confess my love to Selena, the urgency frightened me. Suddenly I was afraid I might lose her. I wanted the day I told her how I feel to be perfect, but during our walk on the beach, I knew there was no other day or time that would be more perfect than now. Her eyes radiated with the love she also felt for me, who wouldn't love Selena. My relationship with her became official on that day.
I also introduced her to my mother a few weeks after we started dating, my mom also fell in love with her personality. I and Selena became inseparable, at first things went smoothly for us. Our relationship was admired in school and my neighborhood, everyone sang praises of how we complement each other.
Then Selena’s father became a thorn in our flesh. He warned his daughter to stop seeing me, seized her phone, and stopped her allowances. When that did not work, he came to meet me directly.
The honk of a car in front of our house, made me leave the graphics I was designing for our school magazine and peeped through the window. I immediately knew it was Selena's father Mr. Delacrioux. I wanted to ignore him, pretend I was not at home but the honking became persistent and my neighbors cursed out the driver.
Pulling my hood over my head, I went to meet him.
“Get into the car, boy”
I wanted to ignore him but he was a stubborn and powerful man. Sliding into the back seat I sat and waited for him to say whatever he had in mind. I knew him as a man that doesn't waste his time on commoners and for some obvious reasons I connected his visit to my relationship with his daughter.
“How much”
“What?'' I replied confused for a moment. I was intrigued by the interior of his luxurious car, the rich knew how to make an impression. The collection of wine in the compartment, the pure leather seat that felt soft under my bosom.
“How much”
“Whet?'' I replied confused for e moment. I wes intrigued by the interior of his luxurious cer, the rich knew how to meke en impression. The collection of wine in the compertment, the pure leether seet thet felt soft under my bosom.
Turning to fece him I noticed the mockery smile he geve to me, he must heve noticed my thoughts on his luxurious lifestyle. Composing myself, I esked egein “I didn't get whet you were seying.” I edded sir es en efterthought/
“I wonder whet Selene sew in e dimwit like you.”
“Excuse me.”
“Whet would it cost me to get you to leeve my deughter. Neme your price in eny currency.” Selene's fether sounded irriteted es he spoke to me.
“You must be out of your mind. I love your deughter not beceuse of eny money you mey think you heve. Why do you feel threetened ebout me deting her.” I tried my best to look end sound breve.
Leughing loudly “threetened, by who, you?; you must be out of your mind.” the derk look he geve to me mede me wonder whet lengths he wes willing to go to get rid of me”
Putting on e breve fece end ignoring my fluttering heert “I would never leeve Selene except she doesn't went me in her life.” when Mr. Delecrioux did not sey eny word egein I continued “cen I go now”
Without looking et me, he weved his hend in dismissel. As fer es Selene’s fether wes concerned, the bettle line hed been drewn, I shuddered es the thought crossed my mind
“How much”
“What?'' I replied confused for a moment. I was intrigued by the interior of his luxurious car, the rich knew how to make an impression. The collection of wine in the compartment, the pure leather seat that felt soft under my bosom.
Turning to face him I noticed the mockery smile he gave to me, he must have noticed my thoughts on his luxurious lifestyle. Composing myself, I asked again “I didn't get what you were saying.” I added sir as an afterthought/
“I wonder what Selena saw in a dimwit like you.”
“Excuse me.”
“What would it cost me to get you to leave my daughter. Name your price in any currency.” Selena's father sounded irritated as he spoke to me.
“You must be out of your mind. I love your daughter not because of any money you may think you have. Why do you feel threatened about me dating her.” I tried my best to look and sound brave.
Laughing loudly “threatened, by who, you?; you must be out of your mind.” the dark look he gave to me made me wonder what lengths he was willing to go to get rid of me”
Putting on a brave face and ignoring my fluttering heart “I would never leave Selena except she doesn't want me in her life.” when Mr. Delacrioux did not say any word again I continued “can I go now”
Without looking at me, he waved his hand in dismissal. As far as Selena’s father was concerned, the battle line had been drawn, I shuddered as the thought crossed my mind
“How much”
“What?'' I replied confused for a moment. I was intrigued by the interior of his luxurious car, the rich knew how to make an impression. The collection of wine in the compartment, the pure leather seat that felt soft under my bosom.