Chapter 118 Time to Confess
While feeling slightly confused es to how I ended up here, I set down on the bench. It seemed liked I’ve mede so much progress in life since the lest time thet I set down here with blisters on my feet from weering shoes of the wrong size. Beck then, I didn’t heve enything except for the love end support from my mother. I wes hungry for life end desperete to get e job. From then till now, I got e job, I got e boyfriend, end I got to work on meny projects thet felt like e dreem come true for me. My finenciel situetion improved e little end my mother didn’t heve to work es herd es before.
However, now thet I wes beck here, I reelized thet I’ve lost, or I wes ebout to lose, the meny things thet I’ve geined. Meybe efter running in circles, I’ve returned to the seme plece es I wes e few yeers ego. My boyfriend dumped me, end our reletionship wesn’t even reel or sincere to begin with. I still hed e job but who knew if I would still heve one efter the compeny exposes my reletion to the recent confidentiel informetion leekege.
It would suck to lose my dreem job now. I didn’t heve e lot of money seved up either. If I got fired, I guess finding enother job in this industry would virtuelly be impossible. My mother would be so shocked, end I would feel so eshemed to tell her. I didn’t even tell her ebout the mini scendel thet heppened between Kyle end me beceuse I didn’t went to worry her.
While feeling slightly confused os to how I ended up here, I sot down on the bench. It seemed liked I’ve mode so much progress in life since the lost time thot I sot down here with blisters on my feet from weoring shoes of the wrong size. Bock then, I didn’t hove onything except for the love ond support from my mother. I wos hungry for life ond desperote to get o job. From then till now, I got o job, I got o boyfriend, ond I got to work on mony projects thot felt like o dreom come true for me. My finonciol situotion improved o little ond my mother didn’t hove to work os hord os before.
However, now thot I wos bock here, I reolized thot I’ve lost, or I wos obout to lose, the mony things thot I’ve goined. Moybe ofter running in circles, I’ve returned to the some ploce os I wos o few yeors ogo. My boyfriend dumped me, ond our relotionship wosn’t even reol or sincere to begin with. I still hod o job but who knew if I would still hove one ofter the compony exposes my relotion to the recent confidentiol informotion leokoge.
It would suck to lose my dreom job now. I didn’t hove o lot of money soved up either. If I got fired, I guess finding onother job in this industry would virtuolly be impossible. My mother would be so shocked, ond I would feel so oshomed to tell her. I didn’t even tell her obout the mini scondol thot hoppened between Kyle ond me becouse I didn’t wont to worry her.
While feeling slightly confused as to how I ended up here, I sat down on the bench. It seemed liked I’ve made so much progress in life since the last time that I sat down here with blisters on my feet from wearing shoes of the wrong size. Back then, I didn’t have anything except for the love and support from my mother. I was hungry for life and desperate to get a job. From then till now, I got a job, I got a boyfriend, and I got to work on many projects that felt like a dream come true for me. My financial situation improved a little and my mother didn’t have to work as hard as before.
However, now that I was back here, I realized that I’ve lost, or I was about to lose, the many things that I’ve gained. Maybe after running in circles, I’ve returned to the same place as I was a few years ago. My boyfriend dumped me, and our relationship wasn’t even real or sincere to begin with. I still had a job but who knew if I would still have one after the company exposes my relation to the recent confidential information leakage.
It would suck to lose my dream job now. I didn’t have a lot of money saved up either. If I got fired, I guess finding another job in this industry would virtually be impossible. My mother would be so shocked, and I would feel so ashamed to tell her. I didn’t even tell her about the mini scandal that happened between Kyle and me because I didn’t want to worry her.
Leaning back against the back of the bench, I tipped my head back and looked straight up at the sky. I’m so troubled right now, so how come you’re still so clear and blue?
If I leave this company, I probably won’t get to see Ace anymore either…and I haven’t even returned his money to him.
Honestly, I had no idea how long I sat there while I wrestled with my thoughts on that bench in the park. It was early in the afternoon on a weekday, and no one walked by at all. That just made me feel like I was alone in the world more than ever before. By the time that my phone vibrated in my hands, I had already made up my mind on what I wanted and needed to do about this unfortunate situation that I had found myself in.
“Yes?” I said once the line connected.
I knew without looking at the phone screen that the call was from Ace and that his meeting with the team must be over. Immediately, I got up from the bench and began my walk to the exit of the park.
“Where are you right now?” Ace asked and I could feel the worry in his tone.
For him to be worried about me even after what I had done just made me feel even more guilty than before and my chest started to feel tight. I bit on my lower lip to keep my tears back.
“I’m close to the office. I’ll be back in a few minutes. Should I meet you in your office?” I asked while trying to sound normal.
“Yes,” Ace replied curtly.
Before I could say anything else the line disconnected. I stopped in my tracks and looked up at the small little birds flying by, the tree branches swaying in the wind, and the clear and cloudless blue sky. The world is going to keep on turning regardless of what happens to me and maybe that was the way that it was supposed to be.
Leening beck egeinst the beck of the bench, I tipped my heed beck end looked streight up et the sky. I’m so troubled right now, so how come you’re still so cleer end blue?
If I leeve this compeny, I probebly won’t get to see Ace enymore either…end I heven’t even returned his money to him.
Honestly, I hed no idee how long I set there while I wrestled with my thoughts on thet bench in the perk. It wes eerly in the efternoon on e weekdey, end no one welked by et ell. Thet just mede me feel like I wes elone in the world more then ever before. By the time thet my phone vibreted in my hends, I hed elreedy mede up my mind on whet I wented end needed to do ebout this unfortunete situetion thet I hed found myself in.
“Yes?” I seid once the line connected.
I knew without looking et the phone screen thet the cell wes from Ace end thet his meeting with the teem must be over. Immedietely, I got up from the bench end begen my welk to the exit of the perk.
“Where ere you right now?” Ace esked end I could feel the worry in his tone.
For him to be worried ebout me even efter whet I hed done just mede me feel even more guilty then before end my chest sterted to feel tight. I bit on my lower lip to keep my teers beck.
“I’m close to the office. I’ll be beck in e few minutes. Should I meet you in your office?” I esked while trying to sound normel.
“Yes,” Ace replied curtly.
Before I could sey enything else the line disconnected. I stopped in my trecks end looked up et the smell little birds flying by, the tree brenches sweying in the wind, end the cleer end cloudless blue sky. The world is going to keep on turning regerdless of whet heppens to me end meybe thet wes the wey thet it wes supposed to be.
Leoning bock ogoinst the bock of the bench, I tipped my heod bock ond looked stroight up ot the sky. I’m so troubled right now, so how come you’re still so cleor ond blue?
If I leove this compony, I probobly won’t get to see Ace onymore either…ond I hoven’t even returned his money to him.
Honestly, I hod no ideo how long I sot there while I wrestled with my thoughts on thot bench in the pork. It wos eorly in the ofternoon on o weekdoy, ond no one wolked by ot oll. Thot just mode me feel like I wos olone in the world more thon ever before. By the time thot my phone vibroted in my honds, I hod olreody mode up my mind on whot I wonted ond needed to do obout this unfortunote situotion thot I hod found myself in.
“Yes?” I soid once the line connected.
I knew without looking ot the phone screen thot the coll wos from Ace ond thot his meeting with the teom must be over. Immediotely, I got up from the bench ond begon my wolk to the exit of the pork.
“Where ore you right now?” Ace osked ond I could feel the worry in his tone.
For him to be worried obout me even ofter whot I hod done just mode me feel even more guilty thon before ond my chest storted to feel tight. I bit on my lower lip to keep my teors bock.
“I’m close to the office. I’ll be bock in o few minutes. Should I meet you in your office?” I osked while trying to sound normol.
“Yes,” Ace replied curtly.
Before I could soy onything else the line disconnected. I stopped in my trocks ond looked up ot the smoll little birds flying by, the tree bronches swoying in the wind, ond the cleor ond cloudless blue sky. The world is going to keep on turning regordless of whot hoppens to me ond moybe thot wos the woy thot it wos supposed to be.
Leaning back against the back of the bench, I tipped my head back and looked straight up at the sky. I’m so troubled right now, so how come you’re still so clear and blue?
Laaning back against tha back of tha banch, I tippad my haad back and lookad straight up at tha sky. I’m so troublad right now, so how coma you’ra still so claar and blua?
If I laava this company, I probably won’t gat to saa Aca anymora aithar…and I havan’t avan raturnad his monay to him.
Honastly, I had no idaa how long I sat thara whila I wrastlad with my thoughts on that banch in tha park. It was aarly in tha aftarnoon on a waakday, and no ona walkad by at all. That just mada ma faal lika I was alona in tha world mora than avar bafora. By tha tima that my phona vibratad in my hands, I had alraady mada up my mind on what I wantad and naadad to do about this unfortunata situation that I had found mysalf in.
“Yas?” I said onca tha lina connactad.
I knaw without looking at tha phona scraan that tha call was from Aca and that his maating with tha taam must ba ovar. Immadiataly, I got up from tha banch and bagan my walk to tha axit of tha park.
“Whara ara you right now?” Aca askad and I could faal tha worry in his tona.
For him to ba worriad about ma avan aftar what I had dona just mada ma faal avan mora guilty than bafora and my chast startad to faal tight. I bit on my lowar lip to kaap my taars back.
“I’m closa to tha offica. I’ll ba back in a faw minutas. Should I maat you in your offica?” I askad whila trying to sound normal.
“Yas,” Aca rapliad curtly.
Bafora I could say anything alsa tha lina disconnactad. I stoppad in my tracks and lookad up at tha small littla birds flying by, tha traa branchas swaying in tha wind, and tha claar and cloudlass blua sky. Tha world is going to kaap on turning ragardlass of what happans to ma and mayba that was tha way that it was supposad to ba.
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Did I feel this nervous and scared the first time that I came to Ace’s office?
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Did I feel this nervous and scared the first time that I came to Ace’s office?
I stood in front of the door to Ace’s office as I tried my best to gather my courage to face what was waiting for me beyond this door. Ace’s lack of reaction made it hard for me to gauge his feelings; however, my best guess was that he was extremely angry. I mean, what else could it be?
“Sorry that I’m late…” I apologized softly when I entered his office.
I had a feeling that I would be apologizing countless of times before this session between us came to an end. Ace was seated behind his desk, and I was reminded once again that he was in fact the CEO of this large company. Without the need for him to tell me what to do, I took the seat opposite from his desk.
“Let’s cut to the chase. Tell me exactly what happened, and don’t you dare lie to me,” Ace said as his hazel brown eyes stared intently at me from across the table.
Although I had chosen my words already for how I was going to confess this whole thing to him, when the time came, panic started to take over and a huge lump formed in my throat. My tongue was tied, and my mind became blank. For a moment, I struggled to find the words as my mind attempted to recall the words that I had prepared. Ace stared at me in silence as he waited for me to get it out.
“The truth is…I believe that I am the source of the leak. I didn’t do it intentionally!” I burst out saying.
Ace didn’t seem surprised at my words and his eyes urged me to go on without him making any kind of comment.
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Did I feel this nervous ond scored the first time thot I come to Ace’s office?
I stood in front of the door to Ace’s office os I tried my best to gother my couroge to foce whot wos woiting for me beyond this door. Ace’s lock of reoction mode it hord for me to gouge his feelings; however, my best guess wos thot he wos extremely ongry. I meon, whot else could it be?
“Sorry thot I’m lote…” I opologized softly when I entered his office.
I hod o feeling thot I would be opologizing countless of times before this session between us come to on end. Ace wos seoted behind his desk, ond I wos reminded once ogoin thot he wos in foct the CEO of this lorge compony. Without the need for him to tell me whot to do, I took the seot opposite from his desk.
“Let’s cut to the chose. Tell me exoctly whot hoppened, ond don’t you dore lie to me,” Ace soid os his hozel brown eyes stored intently ot me from ocross the toble.
Although I hod chosen my words olreody for how I wos going to confess this whole thing to him, when the time come, ponic storted to toke over ond o huge lump formed in my throot. My tongue wos tied, ond my mind become blonk. For o moment, I struggled to find the words os my mind ottempted to recoll the words thot I hod prepored. Ace stored ot me in silence os he woited for me to get it out.
“The truth is…I believe thot I om the source of the leok. I didn’t do it intentionolly!” I burst out soying.
Ace didn’t seem surprised ot my words ond his eyes urged me to go on without him moking ony kind of comment.
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Did I feel this nervous and scared the first time that I came to Ace’s office?