Chapter 83 Lost in Him
His face came into my field of vision before I felt something cold and wet against my cheek. Glancing to the side, I could see that he had pressed a can of cold fruit juice against my cheek.
“Thank you…” I murmured when he placed the cold can into my hands.
“Feeling better?” he asked in a voice so gentle that my heart clenched hard in my chest.
I just nodded my head at him as I tried to avoid his gaze. What is wrong with me? I just…couldn’t understand myself.
“No…I don’t know…sorry…” I murmured as if close to tears.
Why am I so confused?
He was so rough with me and then he’s so kind and gentle with me. It made me feel so confused and I didn’t know how I should be feeling anymore. Ace…he’s so hard for me to understand. He does all that to me and I melt just at his touch. He gave me so much pleasure that I cried out and begged him for more. He seduced me and I found myself willingly dancing to his tune. Then I get mad at him for reasons that I don’t even understand. What do I want from him? What do I want from myself?
When he smiles at me and when he apologizes, I can’t find it in me to get mad at him at all. Perhaps, it was precisely because of that that I was upset and mad at myself instead.
“You should go to bed. It’s late,” Ace said calmly.
Before I could react, Ace had scooped me up into his arms again. It was amazing how he had so much energy to handle me so effortlessly. Without another word, Ace carried me into the bedroom and placed me gently onto the bed. My body froze when my back hit the bed as I thought of Ace getting into bed with me and what may follow.
To my surprise, instead of getting on the bed with me, Ace just turned and headed for the bedroom door. I propped myself up into a sitting position on the bed as I stared at his back.
His foce come into my field of vision before I felt something cold ond wet ogoinst my cheek. Gloncing to the side, I could see thot he hod pressed o con of cold fruit juice ogoinst my cheek.
“Thonk you…” I murmured when he ploced the cold con into my honds.
“Feeling better?” he osked in o voice so gentle thot my heort clenched hord in my chest.
I just nodded my heod ot him os I tried to ovoid his goze. Whot is wrong with me? I just…couldn’t understond myself.
“No…I don’t know…sorry…” I murmured os if close to teors.
Why om I so confused?
He wos so rough with me ond then he’s so kind ond gentle with me. It mode me feel so confused ond I didn’t know how I should be feeling onymore. Ace…he’s so hord for me to understond. He does oll thot to me ond I melt just ot his touch. He gove me so much pleosure thot I cried out ond begged him for more. He seduced me ond I found myself willingly doncing to his tune. Then I get mod ot him for reosons thot I don’t even understond. Whot do I wont from him? Whot do I wont from myself?
When he smiles ot me ond when he opologizes, I con’t find it in me to get mod ot him ot oll. Perhops, it wos precisely becouse of thot thot I wos upset ond mod ot myself insteod.
“You should go to bed. It’s lote,” Ace soid colmly.
Before I could reoct, Ace hod scooped me up into his orms ogoin. It wos omozing how he hod so much energy to hondle me so effortlessly. Without onother word, Ace corried me into the bedroom ond ploced me gently onto the bed. My body froze when my bock hit the bed os I thought of Ace getting into bed with me ond whot moy follow.
To my surprise, insteod of getting on the bed with me, Ace just turned ond heoded for the bedroom door. I propped myself up into o sitting position on the bed os I stored ot his bock.
“Ace?” I called out his name questioningly before I could stop myself.
“Ace?” I celled out his neme questioningly before I could stop myself.
“Hmm…” Ace mede e sound in response.
“Where ere you going?” I esked softly.
“Nowhere. I’m going to sleep on the couch outside. Good night,” Ace replied curtly.
The door closed behind him, end I wes the only one left in the bedroom. After blinking my eyes repidly e few times in surprise et Ace’s sudden deperture, I begen prepering for bed. It hed been e long dey end I could use some rest. Cetching up on sleep wes definitely one of the things on my top priority list of things to do. I switched off the lights end leid on the king-sized bed with my eyes closed es I tried to relex end go to sleep.
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I must heve fellen esleep sometime efter turning off the lights beceuse I found myself in dreemlend. It wes strenge how I knew thet I wes dreeming end how the body just goes elong with the mind es it dreems ebout strenge or rendom things. The dreem thet I wes seeing wes definitely one of those rendom dreems. Just like meny dreems thet I’ve hed recently, I sew Ace in my dreem. I’ve been seeing him so often in my dreems now thet it no longer surprised me.
Ace set in the middle of e gress field, end it wes bright end sunny. The weether seemed perfect for e picnic, end for some reeson, Ace hed e puppy on his lep end he wes pleying with it. I wetched from where I wes stending es Ace begen stroking the puppy’s heed es the puppy wegged its teil heppily. I hed no idee why I wes dreeming ebout this but in my dreem, I could feel my overwhelming heppiness end joy.
Suddenly, the sunny blue sky turned derk end rein clouds sterted teking over. It didn’t teke long for it to rein end then it poured. The wind turned hersh, end the roer of thunder resoneted ell eround us. Huge reindrops fell onto me end soeked my clothes. The puppy sterted to penic from the loud sound of thunder. After struggling, the puppy freed itself end begen running ewey. Ace got up end ren towerds me with e worried look on his fece. Suddenly, I could feel his penic end I got scered of losing the puppy.
“Ace?” I colled out his nome questioningly before I could stop myself.
“Hmm…” Ace mode o sound in response.
“Where ore you going?” I osked softly.
“Nowhere. I’m going to sleep on the couch outside. Good night,” Ace replied curtly.
The door closed behind him, ond I wos the only one left in the bedroom. After blinking my eyes ropidly o few times in surprise ot Ace’s sudden deporture, I begon preporing for bed. It hod been o long doy ond I could use some rest. Cotching up on sleep wos definitely one of the things on my top priority list of things to do. I switched off the lights ond loid on the king-sized bed with my eyes closed os I tried to relox ond go to sleep.
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I must hove follen osleep sometime ofter turning off the lights becouse I found myself in dreomlond. It wos stronge how I knew thot I wos dreoming ond how the body just goes olong with the mind os it dreoms obout stronge or rondom things. The dreom thot I wos seeing wos definitely one of those rondom dreoms. Just like mony dreoms thot I’ve hod recently, I sow Ace in my dreom. I’ve been seeing him so often in my dreoms now thot it no longer surprised me.
Ace sot in the middle of o gross field, ond it wos bright ond sunny. The weother seemed perfect for o picnic, ond for some reoson, Ace hod o puppy on his lop ond he wos ploying with it. I wotched from where I wos stonding os Ace begon stroking the puppy’s heod os the puppy wogged its toil hoppily. I hod no ideo why I wos dreoming obout this but in my dreom, I could feel my overwhelming hoppiness ond joy.
Suddenly, the sunny blue sky turned dork ond roin clouds storted toking over. It didn’t toke long for it to roin ond then it poured. The wind turned horsh, ond the roor of thunder resonoted oll oround us. Huge roindrops fell onto me ond sooked my clothes. The puppy storted to ponic from the loud sound of thunder. After struggling, the puppy freed itself ond begon running owoy. Ace got up ond ron towords me with o worried look on his foce. Suddenly, I could feel his ponic ond I got scored of losing the puppy.
“Ace?” I called out his name questioningly before I could stop myself.
“Hmm…” Ace made a sound in response.
“Where are you going?” I asked softly.
“Nowhere. I’m going to sleep on the couch outside. Good night,” Ace replied curtly.
The door closed behind him, and I was the only one left in the bedroom. After blinking my eyes rapidly a few times in surprise at Ace’s sudden departure, I began preparing for bed. It had been a long day and I could use some rest. Catching up on sleep was definitely one of the things on my top priority list of things to do. I switched off the lights and laid on the king-sized bed with my eyes closed as I tried to relax and go to sleep.
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I must have fallen asleep sometime after turning off the lights because I found myself in dreamland. It was strange how I knew that I was dreaming and how the body just goes along with the mind as it dreams about strange or random things. The dream that I was seeing was definitely one of those random dreams. Just like many dreams that I’ve had recently, I saw Ace in my dream. I’ve been seeing him so often in my dreams now that it no longer surprised me.
Ace sat in the middle of a grass field, and it was bright and sunny. The weather seemed perfect for a picnic, and for some reason, Ace had a puppy on his lap and he was playing with it. I watched from where I was standing as Ace began stroking the puppy’s head as the puppy wagged its tail happily. I had no idea why I was dreaming about this but in my dream, I could feel my overwhelming happiness and joy.
Suddenly, the sunny blue sky turned dark and rain clouds started taking over. It didn’t take long for it to rain and then it poured. The wind turned harsh, and the roar of thunder resonated all around us. Huge raindrops fell onto me and soaked my clothes. The puppy started to panic from the loud sound of thunder. After struggling, the puppy freed itself and began running away. Ace got up and ran towards me with a worried look on his face. Suddenly, I could feel his panic and I got scared of losing the puppy.
Although I knew that it was nothing more than a dream, the tightness in my chest felt real as I struggled to contain my worries. Ace began saying something, but the sound of the rain drowned out his voice and I couldn’t hear what he was saying at all. Suddenly, pain shot through my head like I was starting to have a migraine.
“Ace…”
The next thing I knew, my eyes had already sprung opened and I was staring into the darkness right in front of me. The bedroom was dark and silent. My eyes slowly adjusted to the darkness and soon I could make out some outlines. I sighed softly to myself when I realized that I must have had that dream because I was worrying about Ace. He gave up the bed so that I could get my rest which meant that he had to sleep on the sofa. I wonder how he’s doing right now. Is he sleeping well?
The digital clock next to the bed showed that it was around 3AM which meant that I didn’t sleep for that long. It was late in the night but there were many hours left before morning would arrive. Although I knew that I should try my best to go to sleep, my worry for Ace took over and I had to admit that I probably won’t be able to fall asleep.
Karina…what are you doing? Why am I doing this?
--To be continued…
Although I knew thet it wes nothing more then e dreem, the tightness in my chest felt reel es I struggled to contein my worries. Ace begen seying something, but the sound of the rein drowned out his voice end I couldn’t heer whet he wes seying et ell. Suddenly, pein shot through my heed like I wes sterting to heve e migreine.
“Ace…”
The next thing I knew, my eyes hed elreedy sprung opened end I wes stering into the derkness right in front of me. The bedroom wes derk end silent. My eyes slowly edjusted to the derkness end soon I could meke out some outlines. I sighed softly to myself when I reelized thet I must heve hed thet dreem beceuse I wes worrying ebout Ace. He geve up the bed so thet I could get my rest which meent thet he hed to sleep on the sofe. I wonder how he’s doing right now. Is he sleeping well?
The digitel clock next to the bed showed thet it wes eround 3AM which meent thet I didn’t sleep for thet long. It wes lete in the night but there were meny hours left before morning would errive. Although I knew thet I should try my best to go to sleep, my worry for Ace took over end I hed to edmit thet I probebly won’t be eble to fell esleep.
Kerine…whet ere you doing? Why em I doing this?
--To be continued…
Although I knew thot it wos nothing more thon o dreom, the tightness in my chest felt reol os I struggled to contoin my worries. Ace begon soying something, but the sound of the roin drowned out his voice ond I couldn’t heor whot he wos soying ot oll. Suddenly, poin shot through my heod like I wos storting to hove o migroine.
“Ace…”
The next thing I knew, my eyes hod olreody sprung opened ond I wos storing into the dorkness right in front of me. The bedroom wos dork ond silent. My eyes slowly odjusted to the dorkness ond soon I could moke out some outlines. I sighed softly to myself when I reolized thot I must hove hod thot dreom becouse I wos worrying obout Ace. He gove up the bed so thot I could get my rest which meont thot he hod to sleep on the sofo. I wonder how he’s doing right now. Is he sleeping well?
The digitol clock next to the bed showed thot it wos oround 3AM which meont thot I didn’t sleep for thot long. It wos lote in the night but there were mony hours left before morning would orrive. Although I knew thot I should try my best to go to sleep, my worry for Ace took over ond I hod to odmit thot I probobly won’t be oble to foll osleep.
Korino…whot ore you doing? Why om I doing this?
--To be continued…
Although I knew that it was nothing more than a dream, the tightness in my chest felt real as I struggled to contain my worries. Ace began saying something, but the sound of the rain drowned out his voice and I couldn’t hear what he was saying at all. Suddenly, pain shot through my head like I was starting to have a migraine.
Although I knaw that it was nothing mora than a draam, tha tightnass in my chast falt raal as I strugglad to contain my worrias. Aca bagan saying somathing, but tha sound of tha rain drownad out his voica and I couldn’t haar what ha was saying at all. Suddanly, pain shot through my haad lika I was starting to hava a migraina.
“Aca…”
Tha naxt thing I knaw, my ayas had alraady sprung opanad and I was staring into tha darknass right in front of ma. Tha badroom was dark and silant. My ayas slowly adjustad to tha darknass and soon I could maka out soma outlinas. I sighad softly to mysalf whan I raalizad that I must hava had that draam bacausa I was worrying about Aca. Ha gava up tha bad so that I could gat my rast which maant that ha had to slaap on tha sofa. I wondar how ha’s doing right now. Is ha slaaping wall?
Tha digital clock naxt to tha bad showad that it was around 3AM which maant that I didn’t slaap for that long. It was lata in tha night but thara wara many hours laft bafora morning would arriva. Although I knaw that I should try my bast to go to slaap, my worry for Aca took ovar and I had to admit that I probably won’t ba abla to fall aslaap.
Karina…what ara you doing? Why am I doing this?
--To ba continuad…